A Child-like Spirit

And so, my mother tells the story of me at the age of five waking up one morning shortly after I had prayed and asked Jesus to come into my heart. I ran to the front picture window, threw back the curtain and excitedly asked “Mommy, could today be the day that He comes back?” While I don’t remember that morning, as a child I was keenly aware of His presence around me and in our home.

The beauty of this story is the uninhibited expectation a child has with regard to what God’s word says. I had been taught of His love for me and seen ‘pictures’ of His return. In each of them, Jesus was standing on white puffy clouds with welcoming arms outstretched. When I was told that He could return at any time, I believed, without reservation. Matthew 18:3-4 encourages us to become like little children in order to enter into the kingdom of heaven. I think that simply means to have the spirit of a child…innocent, trusting, expectant, alive. Children see Him in the beauty of his creation, and expect to find Him as they go about their days.

“Grown ups” must choose to find the wonder in life. As we mature and our sense of reasoning develops we tend to lose the ability to accept something simply for what it is. Our minds begin to be clouded by logic and explanation. We forget to look for Him among the four leaf clovers or shapes in clouds. We get too busy to open the windows and hear His applause in the sound of the rain. Our lives are dictated by our schedules, thoughts, emotions and appetites which are all things we are conscious of during an average day.

Our spirits are far less demanding than our emotions and schedules. We are typically not as conscious of our spirits need to be fed because it doesn’t grumble like our tummies do. Replenishing your spirit requires intention and focus, and is every bit as important. Our creator desires to communicate with every part of who we are. He loves us to read and use our minds to absorb His Word. His heart is warmed when our love for him is expressed in worship. But He is a spirit being who wants to communicate with our spirits. I believe that our spirits are communicating with the Holy Spirit at all times. We are just too busy to recognize it.

So how do we begin to pay attention to our spirits more diligently? I would like to suggest that you begin in the morning, before your feet hit the floor. As soon as you turn the alarm off, wait and focus on the thoughts you are having in that moment. You may have a song or phrase running through your mind. Ask the Lord if it is something He wants to say to you. Be aware that the words or phrases you hear may not be a scripture or words that you would think God would use to speak to you. One morning I woke up and heard these words “If I lay here. If I just lay here. Would you lie with me and just forget the world?” In that moment, I didn’t try to figure out who sang that song or where I had heard it, I just chose to hear the desire of my heavenly Father to be still with me and forget the cares of that day. On more than a few occasions I have woken up with lyrics of a love song floating through my mind. When that happens, I just assume that Jesus is singing me a love song…not a bad thought to start your day. Please note that I am not a morning person. My family will tell you that my best hours are those ending in p.m. I’m not talking about deep intimate times of meditation, just an awareness that sometimes our spirits must wait for our minds, emotions and bodies to quiet down in order to fully communicate with the Holy Spirit. It is such a comfort to know that while my body and mind are replenishing through rest, my spirit is being rejuvenated and sharing things with the Lord.

Many times we confuse the encouragement of the Holy Spirit with thoughts. You know what I’m talking about…you’re vacuuming the dog hair off the couch, or driving to your third practice for the day and you feel like you should call a friend who is going through a difficult time. I say put down the dust buster or pick up your cell phone and make the call, because that is not a thought, it’s a suggestion from the Holy Spirit. I wonder what would be so wrong if we began to believe that all of those kinds of ‘thoughts’ were actually from God himself. I find when I do this consistently throughout the day, I have more time at the end of my day and a great sense of satisfaction in having been used by God to encourage someone in need. I think of it as a tithe of my time and attention.

I began to realize how interested He is in an ongoing dialogue with me several years ago as I was driving to work. I always used that time to worship and pray. One morning I was particularly burdened by an extended family situation and was pouring out my heart’s concerns. I arrived at the parking lot, got out of my car and do not consciously remember when I quit talking to Him. At lunch time, I returned to my car. As soon as I got in the car, a phrase began to run through my head. I kept hearing the words “and so…” over and over again until I said (out loud) “and so what?” At that moment I realized that the Lord had waited for me to return to where we had last spoken and finish the story I was sharing with Him. That was over 15 years ago and I’ve never forgotten what that felt like. Almighty God, waiting for me to share with Him, things He already knew. His desire was so great for me to talk to Him that He nudged me gently to get my attention.

I would like to say that from that day on He has never lost my attention, but that’s not totally true. I do love starting my days with love songs from the Lord and I do take time to lie on the sidewalk and look at the stars. I always try to send the card or make the call and pray for friends He brings to mind as we go through the day. When I take the time to be conscious of how present He is in my life and recognize that He orchestrates all of the little “coincidences” that occur in my day, I become aware of how alive my spirit is. And on the day that He does return, I hope I’ve thrown my curtains back in anticipation and asked “Father, could today be the day?”